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Friday, April 01, 2005

it's been such a long time since i last updated my blog.today, i'm sitting right in front of my computer trying hard to squeeze something out of my rusted brain to be typed and posted in my blog.but i'm just so...out of ideas.i was never that good in writing but it was never this bad.i find it difficult to put my feelings into words nowadays.sometimes i have so much to say,so many thoughts whirling in my mind,but i simply can't put them into words,and that hurts.it feels like there's not even a person in the whole wide world understands me anymore.if you're asking me why i'm feeling this way i'm really sorry,i don't even have an answer for myself...i guess i'm just feeling lonely?sometimes things change so much and time passes so fast that i'm not able to cope with it.i can't keep up my pace with the changes.when i think back of my past,oh..i simply miss the old days..T_T especially when i come back from lepak-ing with some old friends,i kind of feel an emptiness inside.yeah,all of us are still friends,but things are different now.i can sense that we're already starting to go on seperate path and common topics for conversation between us are getting lesser and lesser.years from now,i wonder if we'll still be friends...sad huh?but i guess i'll have to start getting use to this kinda situations and accept it with open heart.this is reality,and reality hurts.i bet most of you feel the same way as i do?or is it i'm the only one who's clinging on my sweet memories and refuse to let go?man..i just hate growing up.

Elin~ @ 11:42 PM | u hav sumthin 2 say?

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